(Friday, July 18)
At the San Francisco Zen Center's Green Gulch Farm these few days I'm here, I eat breakfast amidst a community sitting in silence. I haven't received such a gift in a long time, immersed in the sweetness of the experience.
The silence isn't an absence. It's the womb of possibility. I'm invited to protect it for the sake of everyone else in the room. They protect it for one other, and for me, whom they've never met and likely won't see again. We all protect it for the sake of the silence itself.
As I sit here with a dear friend, I look out the window to the trunk of a coastal redwood, its bark a deeply scored record of decades and centuries. Its life unhampered by the prison of identity. Its roots buried deeply and invisibly in the earth, reaching out to communicate wordlessly with the roots of other living beings.
Contemplating its trunk, I remember my grandmother living on the edge of poverty in the 1920's and 30's with a family of seven children, yet somehow scraping together donations for conservation of the redwoods that she never saw.
This tree's roots somehow reach out to embrace my grandmother, to migrate and transmute her life into its life. She's become the tree, rooted here just outside the room where I'm starting my day, 2500 miles from where she's buried. Visible only because of the silence.
When communal silence is reframed--when it no longer seems an arbitrary discipline but instead something we all tend lovingly and reverently together--a space of unpredictable magic opens up.